Anger and impulse
Anger, impulse, reaction and arguments are seemingly part of our lives. In Vipassana, it is taught that introspection of the mind is like a deep surgical operation. One has to face it, and one has to be able to confront one's problems. It is like a housewife preparing food, and the dinner is not liked by anyone. The nature of food is not to blame. The act of cooking food is not to blame. Reaction and impact are led by people's emotions. It happens differently each time that one does anything. Every moment is different. One has to be able to understand from within oneself, without imagination. Just be clear. That, one gets angry on impulse. It usually happens when one is denied something. Observe the truth. Observe it in reality. Without any craving or need.
Anger seems to be garbage accumulated within the mind. There is extreme impurity within the mind and within the body. Discomfort seems to be equal to having been denied something. One requires strong determination. One needs to be definitely focused upon understanding oneself.
One cannot go away from one's mind. One cannot get away from one's body. One lives with one's family and friends and colleagues. One has to ask each time = "Am I prepared to stay with my family? Am I prepared to stay with my friends? Am I prepared to stay with my colleagues?"
Anger is equal to the feeling that one seems to want to run away from one's own mind and body. I have to decide to take out the impurities within my mind and my body. One cannot stand away from oneself and observe one's defects. One should have a strong determination to abide by what one observes about onself. One should be early to observe oneself. It does not work.
Sometimes there is severe anger impulse. I get upset and frustrated. Sometimes it is in obvious reaction, sometimes, it is in silent observation. It can be due to many aspects. Before anyone begins to think that my recording these points must make me seem like a total case of depression, let me correct the perspective. I have a compulsive obsession to keep writing. I have to get things off my mind. I clean up my mind in this manner. In comparison, there are all those others who do not say what they have within them, and they do not discuss it and they do not write about it. It does not mean that they are not depressed, or not under some sort of a syndrome etc.
Chaos is a mystery. It happens within the mind and it happens within our work area and in our areas of cohabitation with others. Chaos is also caused in the aspect of 'nothing'. One does not do one's work properly. It results in chaos, and though nobody notices it, the result 'nothing' leads to bottlenecks in one's work and systems.
One can observe others being frustrated and in chaos. This can also lead to frustration and worrisome perspectives. Behaviour is not merely a collection of emotions. Sometimes it is, or, usually it is, a physical reaction. One wants to do something. Desperately. Maybe others can see it on our faces. There are these two - internal and external response to situations. Different hormones seem to work differently. The immediate reaction to fight is the release of cortisol and the increase, rapidly of adrenaline.
Both adrenaline and cortisol have an impact on our logic systems, reasoning and the process of thinking. When they are at acceptable levels, they do not have any negative impact. Cortisol is helpful in our mental functions.
Contemplation
It requires strong determination to establish a time-table or schedule for oneself. Whenever one goes and meets others and coordinates a time-table, it seems to work. Later, it works to destroy itself. It is like a warning. One needs to take rest, and one needs to establish a procedure.
One may feel that one is smart and one does not need to take rest. One may flood oneself with thoughts that seem to be logical. It is not so. There are conflicts and situations that lead to depression by creating anger.
So, does anger lead to depression? Does depression lead to anger? Do thoughts about anger lead to depression? Does time help curing anger? Time, the passage of days, the passage of weeks, even a single day, seems to allow us to forget the events that caused anger. One seems to be able to forgive those who caused anger.
A warning to oneself. Complete silence within the mind is almost impossible to achieve. There is no simple technique to creating silence. Similarly, there is no simple technique to prevent reactions. Some ground rules seem to apply, therefore...
1. Do not raise your voice. Any situation, any impulse, any denial, any cause - do not raise your voice to the other person. Do not create a loud discussion.
What if the other person has raised their voice? What if the other person is shouting at you? What if the other person is scolding you?
Do not react. Establish complete silence. Do not break this cornerstone. Do not mix it up with compulsive silence in not answering at all. Do not assume anything. "Complete silence" is about not raising your voice.
One cannot assume to be in both the methods. That is, be silent, and respond in a lower voice. Answering in a low voice, not answering in a loud voice are not two sides of a single coin. It may be a past habit. Stop it. There is no visualisation of planning such reactions.
It has to be intentional. Deeply churned from within. Do not take any movement when one is inside an argument. Keep within a certain zone. Keep a steady voice. Do not act in an impulse.
Anger, impulse, reaction and arguments are seemingly part of our lives. In Vipassana, it is taught that introspection of the mind is like a deep surgical operation. One has to face it, and one has to be able to confront one's problems. It is like a housewife preparing food, and the dinner is not liked by anyone. The nature of food is not to blame. The act of cooking food is not to blame. Reaction and impact are led by people's emotions. It happens differently each time that one does anything. Every moment is different. One has to be able to understand from within oneself, without imagination. Just be clear. That, one gets angry on impulse. It usually happens when one is denied something. Observe the truth. Observe it in reality. Without any craving or need.
Anger seems to be garbage accumulated within the mind. There is extreme impurity within the mind and within the body. Discomfort seems to be equal to having been denied something. One requires strong determination. One needs to be definitely focused upon understanding oneself.
One cannot go away from one's mind. One cannot get away from one's body. One lives with one's family and friends and colleagues. One has to ask each time = "Am I prepared to stay with my family? Am I prepared to stay with my friends? Am I prepared to stay with my colleagues?"
Anger is equal to the feeling that one seems to want to run away from one's own mind and body. I have to decide to take out the impurities within my mind and my body. One cannot stand away from oneself and observe one's defects. One should have a strong determination to abide by what one observes about onself. One should be early to observe oneself. It does not work.
Sometimes there is severe anger impulse. I get upset and frustrated. Sometimes it is in obvious reaction, sometimes, it is in silent observation. It can be due to many aspects. Before anyone begins to think that my recording these points must make me seem like a total case of depression, let me correct the perspective. I have a compulsive obsession to keep writing. I have to get things off my mind. I clean up my mind in this manner. In comparison, there are all those others who do not say what they have within them, and they do not discuss it and they do not write about it. It does not mean that they are not depressed, or not under some sort of a syndrome etc.
Chaos is a mystery. It happens within the mind and it happens within our work area and in our areas of cohabitation with others. Chaos is also caused in the aspect of 'nothing'. One does not do one's work properly. It results in chaos, and though nobody notices it, the result 'nothing' leads to bottlenecks in one's work and systems.
One can observe others being frustrated and in chaos. This can also lead to frustration and worrisome perspectives. Behaviour is not merely a collection of emotions. Sometimes it is, or, usually it is, a physical reaction. One wants to do something. Desperately. Maybe others can see it on our faces. There are these two - internal and external response to situations. Different hormones seem to work differently. The immediate reaction to fight is the release of cortisol and the increase, rapidly of adrenaline.
Both adrenaline and cortisol have an impact on our logic systems, reasoning and the process of thinking. When they are at acceptable levels, they do not have any negative impact. Cortisol is helpful in our mental functions.
Contemplation
It requires strong determination to establish a time-table or schedule for oneself. Whenever one goes and meets others and coordinates a time-table, it seems to work. Later, it works to destroy itself. It is like a warning. One needs to take rest, and one needs to establish a procedure.
One may feel that one is smart and one does not need to take rest. One may flood oneself with thoughts that seem to be logical. It is not so. There are conflicts and situations that lead to depression by creating anger.
So, does anger lead to depression? Does depression lead to anger? Do thoughts about anger lead to depression? Does time help curing anger? Time, the passage of days, the passage of weeks, even a single day, seems to allow us to forget the events that caused anger. One seems to be able to forgive those who caused anger.
A warning to oneself. Complete silence within the mind is almost impossible to achieve. There is no simple technique to creating silence. Similarly, there is no simple technique to prevent reactions. Some ground rules seem to apply, therefore...
1. Do not raise your voice. Any situation, any impulse, any denial, any cause - do not raise your voice to the other person. Do not create a loud discussion.
What if the other person has raised their voice? What if the other person is shouting at you? What if the other person is scolding you?
Do not react. Establish complete silence. Do not break this cornerstone. Do not mix it up with compulsive silence in not answering at all. Do not assume anything. "Complete silence" is about not raising your voice.
One cannot assume to be in both the methods. That is, be silent, and respond in a lower voice. Answering in a low voice, not answering in a loud voice are not two sides of a single coin. It may be a past habit. Stop it. There is no visualisation of planning such reactions.
It has to be intentional. Deeply churned from within. Do not take any movement when one is inside an argument. Keep within a certain zone. Keep a steady voice. Do not act in an impulse.
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