From me to U-sister, 10 September 2014

My dear U,

It has been a long long time since you have been in touch. There is absolutely no contact with you. Can you at least stay in touch with this facility? I hope you have not forgotten the p. How can I inform the p to you? 

I tried to get in touch with C to speak to D. But he did not seem to understand about what I wanted. I do not have D's phone number otherwise I would have tried to talk to him. 

Sometimes, at least once in a week, I wake up in a panic, like a near heart attack, thinking about you. I fear that I will never meet you again or never be able to speak to you again or get in touch with you again. 

There will always be situations in everyone's lives that will overtake everything and upturn everything. But one cannot get away from memories and thoughts. Similarly, I cannot get away from thinking about you every day and every night and every moment. For me, even T and P are not as important as you are to me. 

At least stay in touch in some small way. Think of something.

Today I got in touch with Seshadri, who was a classmate of mine in school, after 40 years. JS (also on Facebook) who is also a classmate of mine from , gave me his phone number and I spoke to Seshadri. He recognised me as "SB's son and S's elder brother!" I was so happy. Extremely happy. I started crying in office. 

For my entire life, nobody has ever recognised me as "S's elder brother"... and my own classmate who should recognise me directly, did not do so, but recognised me as your brother. Imagine how much I cried.

What is that crime that I committed, that is so irretrievable, so wrong, so illegal, so non-correctable, so non-penanciable that cannot bring back a brother and sister? Imagine a situation that may come about similarly with your son and daughter? Imagine how much your son would cry or be torn about not being able to talk to your daughter, his twin sister? What would be the torture at that time? 

I live through that torture, every day and every night.

Let us see where it will all go to, and how it will all end. 

I love you, always.